they say that,

Distance makes us wise
and
Distance makes the heart grow fonder.
but
One of these things
is truer than the other
and
though I can not comprehend
all good things shall come to an end.

I just can't.

This is
the hardest thing
I have ever done.

I am honestly at a lack for words.

you are making this so difficult

You make me so happy that
I run around wearing sunglasses and
laughing and smiling like a lunatic
at 1AM.
I am loved.
Please don't leave.

friends... (not really a poem...idk)

you are drunk
and walking down a street near my house and
i am worried about you but
i am so tired.
you are safe.
phone calls like this,
at 1:40AM
make me want to run outside barefoot
into your arms.
you say sweet dreams and "I love you"
and my heart melts.
I say I love you too.
Thank you for taking vodka shots for me
please
don't get hurt
or lost
or freeze
because I would be the saddest panda
Remember that I love you

I need

I need so much
I want so much
but all I can do is wait
and work hard
if only those were things
I knew how to do.

I just need to get this out of my system

COULD YOU BE ANYMORE NEGATIVE?!?!?!

You aren't even 20 yet, don't say that you will spend your whole life alone
or that you could die in 6 months and never have been in love

that is such bull shit

you could die at anytime (I don't want you to but it is possible)

if you set yourself up by saying shit like that it won't happen

IT'S PSYCHOLOGY!!!!!!!

I love you to death but damn it,
you are not a dried up old lady
you are prettier than you think you are

you are just hellbent on being cripplingly shy
and really only you can change that
and if you want to change it you need to make an effort to meet new people
I know I don't do that
but I don't try to.
so focusing on the negative in your life won't fucking help
and it really scares me when you say shit like "I have all these plans and I am going to have to do them all alone."
I say "well no, you have friends. just because there isn't anyone right now doesnt mean there never will be"
you say "No. I know there never will be."

YOU CAN'T CONTROL THAT!
You say that you are optimistic
no
this
I can't think when you talk like that
because you will never be alone.
You have friends and family that love you
you dont have a LOVER
So what.
Sometime you will
and this will seem like a joke.

You are worth far more than you think you are
and just because you aren't in a romantic relationship that doesn't mean you never will be.

So really,
stop dwelling on this one aspect of life
you either need to try harder, or just go with the flow
but please
don't close your heart off to love
because really, that is what you are doing, and the fact that you won't listen to what anyone has to say is not helping.

UGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

No matter where I am
who I am with
what I am doing

I can't get anything done
because I am distracted by my own thoughts
my own feeble pondering's

It is really becoming a problem
but how do I get out of my own head?