hey there

Took this on accident
thought it was pretty good...
i dont even look like myself.
I am just so fucking exasperated.
I am tired of the people around me forgetting me
my parents
my friends
just forgetting i exist
or not following through with anything
today has been like every other day
but with the shining beam of not being homeless next year
i am so happy we have a place to live
i just wish that i knew what made me so fucking forgettable
because i really dont think i am

I need to be alone
i need my own space
i should have listened
and then maybe i would be happier
but
maybe i should have not done anything
or just done what was expected
then i wouldnt be failing
fuck
this
bull
shit.

i cant wait until i have a job
and money
and we can go to ireland

i cant wait
until someone loves me
and i love them back
without hesitation.

Shit fucking hurts.
There is something in my eye.
Staring at the screen has helped.
however my eye is watering and i cant wear my glasses...
Sometimes i hate everything...
sometimes i waste too much time
sometimes i wish things were different.

I guess this is my face. I go to University of New Mexico.
I must admit that i am not too fond of it.
My name is Jessie.
I don't know how i feel about this whole blog thing...
I guess i will share my thoughts....