Some days
i just want to rip my hair out
pack up my things
empty my bank accounts
buy a plane ticket to somewhere i have never been
and live
because that sounds exhilarating

and because when i look around this city
i see nothing
but hopeless people
in bad situations

there are so many drunks
drug addicts
homeless

the bus constantly has a smell of urine
booze
bodies

having to avoid sitting in urine soaked seats
sitting and feeling something touch your foot
only to see it is an empty beer can
the liquid seeping into your shoe is the remains

to the point where i am gagging
and i have been a lot of places
but never in a city so dirty
as the one i live in.

i dont understand
why
i am not prejudice towards the homeless
dont take this that way

i just dont see why
in a country that boasts about self worth
we do nothing
to help ourselves.

somedays i want to rip my fucking hair out

this city is so fucking neglected.